Big Fat Negative!

I thought about adding motherf*cking in there for good measure but I'm actually really ok. I'm actually creeped out at myself about how calm I've been about getting a negative beta.  I thought there would be screaming, tears, cursing but there were no tears and no anger, just quiet determination about what I can do for the next cycle.  Besides, I think the huge, tantrum-filled fight I had with J which was indirectly related to my IF took care of all the anger I had.

On other news, I've said this before, but I have to lose some serious weight...like, really.  Yes, I already knew that but I get stuck on the thought and never turn it into action.  I've decided to go back to tracking my calories on My Fitness Pal since it really did help and I have to find a way to exercise. Even if I'm just walking the dog, I need to get active.  I'm wanting to do like an all fruit and veggie-type cleanse but I'm not sure how to go about it.  I really wouldn't have a problem giving up red meat and chicken if I could keep my seafood and I like most veggies and fruits.  I can actually give up chicken altogether, but I would have a hard time giving up red meat forever since I like steak so much.  I've been playing around with this idea for a while so let's see how I can make it happen.

I guess that's it for today.  I really don't have much to say but once AF shows we'll start up another inject cycle and hopefully we'll have better luck.